Challenging

This space is created for the expression of my brokenness, my challenges with infertility and faith. I have struggled with infertility for two years now and I felt like I need to process what I am going through via this space. It has been a long hard journey of desiring, believing, hoping, seeking treatments and disappointments. End of last year, I had laparoscopy done (key-hole surgery) and discovered that I had Stage 3 endometriosis. After the surgery, I did fall pregnant and miscarried at 5 weeks due to fluctuating and insufficient hormones i.e. oestrogen and progesterone. Countless tears have been shed and finally my husband and I decided to stop trying for a few months. While feeling the burden lifted, announcements from four friends falling pregnant hit me hard. Despite being happy for them, the feelings of disappointment and grief overwhelmed me. I believe God intends for me to have children, thus the birth of this blog to document my journey so that one day, upon looking back, the hope that I have held so dearly has become a reality. Deuteronomy 33:27 The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.